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“我们不妨把过去的生活看作小说，把过去的自己看成小说中的人物，这样心情会好很多。”——王小波

最近在想很多问题，没有想明白，但时间不容我在琢东磨西，就像我和同学说的那样，我们都在忙忙碌碌，而又碌碌无为。于是我打算休息一下，也不打算接着写这个blog。我曾经一天乐呵呵的，现在的开始怀疑一些东西。这不像我，因此我决定改变，决定阅读。因为我想只有阅读才能让飘起来的人沉静下来，促使人看清究竟想要怎样的生活而摒弃意义甚微的忙碌。也许这对我才是最重要的。

就这样停下来，休息一下吧。我感谢曾经听我诉说，和我讨论的所有同学朋友。我怀念以前的生活，希望它能回来。

04/10

when i was in atlanta, life was busy but wonderful. i met a lot of new friends, got a great chance to talk to people, and i did like it.

i met old friends too. a classmate of mine is living in atlanta, so it made the short trip even more fantastic. we went to the chinese restaurant, and had a nice lunch. haha, i ordered Shui Zhu Niu Rou, spicy, but my boss did not like spicy food. so it turned out that my friend and i ate most of it. that's embrassing but for me that's anyway wonderful. i even got a chance to drive my friend's Ford -- my first time to drive a car. it's new and powerful, by that i mean i always tried to accelerate suddenly and brake suddenly as well >_< .... it's wonderful, though i was wondering if my friend got scared by my 'brave' car-driving show. anyway, never mind, it's not my car, wahaha, what the hell

back to business, i got two posters to show, pretty biz, on monday and wednesday. i got to stand there for more than 2 hrs, tried and stunned. and my friend's poster session was on tuesday, oh, my goddish, why not on the same day, i had to stand for an extra 2 hrs.

on the last day, i had a talk in front of about 20 people, some were really big guys. another friend of mine said i was quite calm like professionals, but i felt like i was, Jesus Christ, damn nervous deep in my heart, ahuh, what  does that mean?

i met my undergrad advisor in atlanta?! wow, that's cool, i did not even dream about that in the past 2000 days..... ha. she was fine as i guessed, and on the wednesday poster session, she came to my poster and talked with me. i got inspired a bunch. it's so wonderful, never thought about it.

my boss said i was Dr Haitao, that's so &^*.....$#!~

so Dr Haitao and the boss went to the CNN centre for food, basically Dr Haitao went there every lunch and dinner ?? we wanted to take the CNN tour, but the time was not good for us, so gave up. but we went to the Olympic Park instead, talking about life.  wow, it was deep....

nine years ago, my boss went to atlanta for his first conference, exactly like me, 2nd year grad, same city. he told me nine years... some things changed some things didn't. well, exactly, i had to agree with what he said. to be honest, i did not quite get it, seems to me that my boss was quite back to the golden old days. but indeed, it reminded me so much about the life, talk with him, looking at those kids playing around. it was a warm and sunny afternoon, people looked peaceful... nine years some things changed, some things didn't

nine years ago, i was still a high school student, agressive and ambitious. actually i didn't even know life would turn out to be like this. magic as always.. but who could?

i like atlanta, enjoyed so much.

今天早上的阳光真得很灿烂，让我想起合肥的春天。就好象做梦一样，感觉自己多年前也曾走在这样一片阳光里。

不是因为阳光的美妙，而是这阳光让我感觉就像回到了大学校园一样。合肥在这个季节应该有柳絮了吧？不知道，印象不那么深了。是不是再过一个多月又要开传说中的运动会了呢？记着我还曾经去跑过一百米，结果小组倒数第一，师姐站在一边直笑。又想起我一个人在弯道的地方踢足球。

算了，不想了，越想越多，还是赶紧写程序吧，时间就是生命啊。

since we're married now, let's behave like husband and wife. -- W

yes, go and make the lunch. -- H

昨天早上收的doctor的email，说要请我吃饭。还真莫名其妙，没来由的，怎么想起请吃饭了。

等到下午，doctor说今天你生日，所以偶请你吃饭。

--哇噻，哥们儿，那是一个月前了。

--啊，不是这个月啊。

--哈哈，傻小，白赚你一顿饭。没想到，还有这么好的人啊。

--f*** you, 亏了。

--never mind, i don't care that much, haha.